Saturday, July 21, 2012

June 24th-28th

June 24th
Got up a bit earlier today because my "spa" appointment was at 10:45 at Mr. Dermatologist's office. Ran a bit late because I forgot my gift certificate and had to turn around to get it. I called Mr. D on my way to break him the news that I had to "work" and won't be able to go away with him for the weekend. His office was actually and very professional looking...hard to tell that a felon owns it..looks can be deceiving. I signed in, filled out paper work, and then spoke to the aesthetician...right away she was already trying to sell me products, lol. Her massage wasn't great, just as I expected but the facial was fantastic. I saw him out of the corner of my eye a few times when I had to pass his office to go use the restroom but I ignored him completely. Upon leaving, I saw he had called. He left a message saying how disappointed he was but he was for the most part alright. I did some shopping; drove around looking for real estate for an investment with Oldie (Jim). I had been thinking about it yesterday and thought it would be a great investment. I found a few things but nothing that stuck. I went home, sent emails and got ready to play some soccer later that evening. It has been 2 months since I played and I missed a few games because of the musical. I scored the first goal and it felt great...I always enjoy playing that sport. I came home, cooked ground turkey stew, ate, and retired to bed

June 25th
I was supposed to take my pole class today but ended up having to cancel because the bff convinced me to take it easy! My left foot was a bit sore, ugh! The bitch didn't even refund my money, ugh! Oh well. I had an appointment with an agent to look at a couple of properties which were all crap! I also had to get a pre-approval letter from Oldie so that these agents took me seriously. I decided to drive around my side of town to see if I could find anything on my own...I found one that peaked my interest and the agent agreed to show it to me right away...it was out of our price range but was a nice home. I knew I didn't love it but the agent agreed to send me another home he thought I would love. The more I thought about it, the more I knew I needed a pool. After that, I drove around some more and then went to the mall to look for a white blazer...geesh! It was like searching for a rare diamonds, but my trusty old store, bebe, had one ON SALE! Yes! I went home happy, watched tv, pigged out, went to bed at 9am!!! I stayed up late watching my shows. I decided to call in advance to cancel my pole class so I got my refund this time.

June 26th
I slept in, watched TV, ate like a pig...one of my castmates texted me about hanging out but she ended up hanging out with the production manager of CATS...she's really trying to be on broadway so more power to her. Today was a lazy day and I was content.

June 27th
I had to go look at a home today; it was ok but not THE ONE. I decided to drive around the neighborhood to see what else was out there. It was a pretty productive day, I made a few contacts. Went home, watched TV, etc. Then I went in the jacuzzi later, which was incredibly fabulous. Went inside and I get a call from the bff (she came back from a couples retreat) and she wanted to come over, uh oh! I guess it didn't go so well. She came by, we drank, we talked, same old same old, until someone came to tell us to leave the pool area because it was closed, lol. Bitches!!! We went inside, watched the AVN awards that I had recorded which was funny. She fell asleep, I finished watching the program, then fell asleep as well. It was a fun Sunday.

June 28th
I overslept today, I guess staying up late drinking didn't help matters. The bff left around 7am. I did get a call for a potential booking though so that was awesome. I hope it all works out because I need to be working!!! I got up and got ready to head out to yoga since the bff couldn't play tennis with me; I need bikram anyway. However, the bff made me blow off yoga to cook so she could come over for dinner; I reluctantly did since I felt bad for her tooth (she had a toothache from her faulty cap), plus I like her company. I guess I'll be going to yoga tomorrow afternoon and then play soccer later. I went to the grocery store, came back and started cooking. She came over, we popped open a bottle of champagne and toasted to life as I threw down in the kitchen. We ate dinner by the pool as we chatted; watched TV and she later headed home. My big dick coke head client had called so I texted him and also decided to text Mr. Bentley and ask about his mom. Mr. Big Dick called, told me he moved, and he wanted to see me but I told him tomorrow since I'm not really up to it. Mr. Bentley is dying to see me tomorrow as well; even sent me a picture of his dick, lol. So I guess I'll be making some money tomorrow, THANK GOD!!! Benjamin called to tell me that he found our Dad on facebook; he seemed shocked about it. We both added him as a friend; he was concerned about blocking him from seeing certain pictures. I really didn't care; at this point in my life, there's really nothing he can say about what I do so he can just deal with it. At least now he can see that I do not "hate" him as he thinks. Hopefully Mr. Pappas comes through this week. I cleaned up in the kitchen, and it's off to bed. Good night!

Friday, July 20, 2012

June 23rd, 2010

Today was pretty eventful. I went to pole class which kicked my ass!!! hahaha. Then I went to meet up with the producer so she could sign my check (she forgot to sign it); she has a lovely home! I definitely see myself in one of those someday. Then I went home cleaned up my place a bit in preparation for Mr. Dermatologist. Showered and called the bff; we chatted about her marriage and my life as usual. Mr. Dermatologist was running late so we were just going to order in; which was fine with me anyways because I really wasn't looking forward to spending that much time with him anyways. He got here; I ordered the food and then I suggested we got on with the sex...I didn't want to prolong this meeting any longer than I had to. Plus I was possibly meeting up with Mr. Bentley later. He got undressed, we kissed, he went down on me. We 69'ed then I put the condom on. We started with doggie; I faked an orgasm so he would come; and of course he asks me "do you think you can cum again or do you want to switch positions?" "I believe it's your turn" I responded...this dude has got to be kidding me! Men really don't know when women fake it. He decides to get on top and in the middle of it he gets soft; "did you cum already?" I asked. He responds, "no"...so Mr. Dermy here was trying to make it last longer and ended up losing his erection like a dumb ass. "you want to try to get it hard again?" He asks me...he must have lost his mind if he thought I was gonna start working my ass off like he was a real paying customer, paying me by the hour! I got up, took the condom off, and got him a warm wash cloth to wipe him down, indicating that the sex was over. I also told him that sex is not fun for me if he gets soft in the process. So I think he won't be trying to last long any more, thank God! We lay there waiting for the food which seemed to take FOREVER to get here. He kept rubbing on me and trying to cuddle like he was gonna get some, ha! I turned on the TV to CNN to seem serious about the world...I'm just too good for my own good, lol. The food gets here, we eat...he tries to linger on so I kick him out...telling him I had to get back to work. "It's ok, I have my class I need to attend" he responds...he would have stayed longer if I let him. He even "forgot" his watch so he had to come back. Then 5 mins later, I get a text from him thanking me for a pleasurable afternoon and telling me what a gracious host I was. Also he mentioned how "getting to know me" is becoming one of his most pleasant experiences...blah blah blah. I see he's already hooked even though he's turned me off a lot. Too bad I'm going to be breaking the news to him on my way to his spa that I have to go out of town for work, which will break his heart, because he was already planning our weekend playing tennis in Orlando. Hahaha....I start researching foreclosure homes because I'm thinking I need to invest in real estate in this economy and I'll just get Jim to help. I called him asking about it, and as usual he was being negative. My brother's girlfriend texts me to ask if I got his package which the front desk lady (old bitter hag) tells me that I don't have one. Until I give her the name of the person that signed for it; then she gives me shit about that not being my name, blah blah blah...I guess I will be cursing the hell out of someone tomorrow morning! Geeze! Whether or not I changed my name is none of her business, so I didn't really feel like getting into that with her. I spent a good amount of my time researching records and what nots..I found a possible prospect on the water. Hopefully it all works out!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

June 17th-22nd, 2011

June 17th
Today is opening night in a new city (same state); this has definitely been a great experience, I'm looking forward to my $$$ deposited in my account from Mr. Dermatologist. He's supposed to be coming to see my show tomorrow. An acquaintance and her boyfriend came to see my show today. What is it about women and their NEED to be in a relationship no matter the cost??? Geeze!!! Anywho, it was a great opening night and our performances just keep getting better. It feels great to have random strangers walk up to me and tell me how great I did :-)

June 18th
I was going to take a pole class today but the owner called to cancel due to a "flat tire"...I think she just didn't feel like coming in since I was apparently the only that signed up...oh well; I wasn't really feeling like going anyways. I was just going to force myself so everything worked out :-)
I have 3 friends and Mr. Dermatologist coming to see me today. We agreed that I would be spending tomorrow night with Mr. D since his family was traveling out of town...he wanted more but my allowance just isn't enough for that, lol. Oh and he deposited my allowance in my account which was why I agreed to it. I hope he's not too needy in bed. After the show, I met up with my friends and Mr D in the lobby; he brought me roses. My female castmates were dying to see my "sugar daddy", lol...rookies! I didn't really think it was a great idea to introduce him to anybody. He's already met a good friend and I'm drawing the line at that...this is not that kind of relationship. He wanted to hang out at his place (or my place for that matter) after the show but I told him no! He needs to realized that I am a PART-TIME girlfriend, not a full-time one. Anywho, I hung out with my friends after the show and it turns out the cast was hanging out at the same venue we were so I went back and forth between my friends and the cast. It was a nice evening out. :-)

June 19th
2 Shows today! I got through it though. Mr. Dermatologist came to take me to a late lunch after the matinee show and we went shopping for lingerie for later tonight and we got a couple of dresses from bebe (I might as well since my allowance isn't much, lol). I'm starting to notice that as with all my relationships with older men; I'm always the one carrying the conversation...it's annoying so I have to stop this while it's still early. I asked him how long ago it was since he had sex with his wife; he responds "about a year or more". Then I ask him how long ago he had sex with someone other than his wife and he responds "6 months to a year". Fucking liar!!! Men are so stupid!!! Does he think I was born yesterday??? He then asks me how long it had been for me and I respond "same as you". LOL; if he can blatantly lie, then so can I! Anywho, after the last show, I socialize and then say my good byes. I didn't really know how I felt about spending the night at Mr. D's house. I would have sooner just fucked him and left. On my way, he calls making sure that I'm still coming...I can see that he's already trying to test boundaries and see how far he can go with me. I'm just gonna keep an eye on him. I get there and he's asking if I needed anything over and over..it was sweet that he was being a gentleman but annoying because he wouldn't just chill the fuck out! I took a long shower, wore my lingerie, and came out. He decided to jump in the shower; apparently all that time he was home, he forgot!!! This is already getting off to an annoying start but I decide to go through with it because he did put some money in my account with no issues. We start kissing and it is going on FOREVER! It's like he was nervous or didn't know how to begin (I find out later that he was trying to tease me, lol). He goes down on me, we 69 and then time to put on the condom, it gets stuck because his penis is weirdly circumcised. Plus he wasn't that hard...lol he was actually trying to do it him self! Men and their prides, when will they learn??? Anywho, that condom wasn't working so I ask for another; wouldn't you know? Mr. D didn't buy condoms like I asked. He was trying to use condoms he had hidden around the house. This just annoyed me even more. It was like he was trying to find a way to NOT use condoms and started telling me he's clean and has been fixed, like I give a fuck. This is not that type of relationship!!! The asshole even went as far as asking me if I always used a condom with my ex; like our relationship and the one I had with my ex are the same. I told him "YES!"...can't argue with that can he? What a douche!!! I'm starting to see that this one is going to annoy me just like oldie, ugh! I told him we should just go to sleep and try in the morning, after he goes to get more condoms. He proceeds to cuddle and I told him, I don't like cuddling when I'm trying to sleep! Geeze, he's already getting needy and annoying!!! It took me a few minutes to go to sleep but I finally did...I also discover that he snores and talks in his sleep, lol.

June 20th
Today is Father's day, he wakes me up and I lay in bed for a while. He starts trying to kiss me. I asked him if he got more condoms and guess what??? He didn't!!! He brought me 2 condoms that he found around the house. He wasn't even hard which means that I would have to give him a blow job forever! I don't mind giving blow jobs when the other party is responsive...but I'm not gonna suck your dick forever; that turns me off!!! We 69'ed and I get him hard after a while and guess what? The condoms are EXPIRED!!! Are you fucking kidding me??? Then I went off on him (in a much nicer way than I normally would). He starts trying to blame me for not wanting to use condoms and asks us to re-think our relationship. I told him that it was normal to use condoms, just because they didn't back in his day doesn't mean that is the way it is now...times have changed!!! He went from saying how mechanical it was and not spontaneous...I told him that it would not be that spontaneous since he plans his weekend around his wife and kids...I have a schedule too! I can't believe that he even dared to challenge me but I put him in his place! Ugh! I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there. I decide to iron my dress and take a shower and he comes back later saying he found some un-expired condoms...I really wanted to tell him to go fuck himself but I figured I owed him. So we go back to bed; it was the most boring an annoying sex ever; he kept wanting to change positions and was trying to make it longer but I was bored! Finally I guess he couldn't hold it anymore and he asks me "are you going to have an orgasm at all??" Wow! how romantic! lol...I told him "why don't you focus on you?" Within seconds, he came; I got up and dashed off to the bathroom to wash the smell of boring sex off me, lol. We went to breakfast; I couldn't wait to get the hell away from him. I was so happy when I left...he's definitely a bit clingy so I don't think I want to be spending a weekend with him this weekend. I will just make up an excuse for work. I sent him an email thanking him for the shopping and wishing him a happy father's day.
Today was the last show; and as I suspected, people were getting emotional. It was a fabulous experience...a lady come up to tell me how wonderful I was; it was great. We had a cast party afterwards which was fun. We went skinny dipping, ate, drank, and were merry. The producer gave me a lot of compliments...I definitely see her in my future. I went home, watched tv, and went to bed.

June 21st
Got up to do some work emailing...I really need to fly a little bit very soon! Bring home the bacon, lol! I made some phone calls, posted an escort ad in NY. Hopefully I get one or two bites; that's all I really need. Geared up for the networking event tomorrow; went to staples to buy some folders for my resume. I can feel that good things are headed my way! :-) Watched TV, went to bed. I think I will do bikram yoga tomorrow

June 22nd
I guess I pussied out, lol...I didn't really feel like making the drive for yoga today...I wish it was outside my door! Oh well, I'm definitely going to pole class tomorrow to make up for it and then on Thursday I'm finally getting back into soccer! That should help with my cardio. I just need to cut back on carbs (just a little bit). Mr. Dermatologist called to give me the information on the gift certificate he had promised me to use his spa...I guess he's still into me after I got turned off by him, lol. Oh well, I'm still blowing him off this weekend. We are supposed to be meeting for lunch tomorrow and some sex (that I can handle; in and out! lol). After I get my gift certificates, I will break the news to him. I'll just tell him I got booked on a trip.
I went to a networking meeting today and it went very well...I made some good contacts and particularly this guy with a nice SL 500...reminds me of what I drove when I was in college (Richard let me drive it )...he seemed into me as well. I looked him up and he seems to be on the up and up...I will find a way to get in there, lol. As a matter of fact a lot of the men there were staring; it's funny though, they didn't stare too hard because it was a business event, ha! I got an email from one of the staffing companies, I guess I passed their background check...I can't wait to start flying again! I need to get on the move/grind ;-)
Went home finished paper work, then bed. Good day t'was today!

June 16th, 2011

Today was another laid back day. Woke up, made some food for the cast; took some over to the bff for sampling to make sure it wasn't too spicy and also to catch up and tell her my story about oldie. It's always good to catch up with her. Turns out her brother in-law's wife is pissed at her for still hanging out with me, lol...she really needs to get a life. I borrowed some disposable plates and spoons from her and headed over to rehearsal with my spicy seafood coconut rice. The cast loved it (the ones that could handle it lol); rehearsal was kind of tiring but still good. I guess I'm ready for this musical to be over so that I can move on to other things. I'm definitely looking forward to hanging out with dermatologist next weekend. I sent him my account information today so we'll see what happens. Went home, ate, watched tv, went to sleep :-)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

June 15th, 2011

Today was the day to see oldie...I really wasn't in the mood. HE'S OLD!!! hahaha...I stayed up late watching my tivo so I really didn't feel like having him around. In any case, he stopped by; we made small talk (it's like pulling teeth because I really have nothing to say to him because we are completely different when it comes to how we view life). He proceeds to kiss me (dreadful as usual) and then starts attempting to finger me but ends up scratching the hell out of my pussy like it was a scratch and sniff. "Not so rough" I responded; I guess that fucked up his self esteem and then he asks me to tell him when he's making me feel good. I respond "I will let you know if anything is wrong. If I don't say anything, then everything is fine". He pauses for a minute and I guess he decides to take time to regroup because apparently, it hurt his ego. I decided to get more comfortable and take a power nap while he made up his mind. After a while he asks me, "do you want to try again or should I go?" "It's up to you", I respond...he sure as hell was not getting spoon fed by me for $2,000/month, WTF??? He decides to give it another try. I jokingly say "you shouldn't put your foot in your mouth, it probably doesn't taste good"...he gets offended (being the sensitive pussy that he is) and says "ok, I'm definitely leaving...I don't think this will work". This of course pisses me off and I say "fine!" He obviously is delusional if he thinks he's gonna find another me out there. He's lucky he even got that far with me...oh well, he'll be back and even if he doesn't come back, I'm fine with that because I didn't enjoy my time with him anyways. Plus I already got my $$$ out of the deal so it's his loss either way. What a dumb ass!!!
Anywho, my dermatologist calls to have dinner with me; I gladly welcome that because I enjoy spending time with him anyways. I find out that he turns 60 this year! lol...no wonder he was embarrassed to tell me his age. I guess being a dermatologist pays because he's definitely had some things done to make him look younger...we had a nice time and ended the evening with him giving me some jewelry he bought me while he was in Nebraska with his sons. All in all, it was a good day. I drove home happy, soaked in the jacuzzi, watched tv, and went to bed :-)

June 14th, 2011

Pretty lazy day today. Slept in; went to my pole class which was excellent. Did some grocery shopping and came back home. Did some laundry. Got in the jacuzzi for a bit and took a bubble bath. Paid some bills online, watched tv...pretty uneventful today but I loved it! :-) Tomorrow I see Oldie...