June 17th-22nd, 2011

June 17th
Today is opening night in a new city (same state); this has definitely been a great experience, I'm looking forward to my $$$ deposited in my account from Mr. Dermatologist. He's supposed to be coming to see my show tomorrow. An acquaintance and her boyfriend came to see my show today. What is it about women and their NEED to be in a relationship no matter the cost??? Geeze!!! Anywho, it was a great opening night and our performances just keep getting better. It feels great to have random strangers walk up to me and tell me how great I did :-)

June 18th
I was going to take a pole class today but the owner called to cancel due to a "flat tire"...I think she just didn't feel like coming in since I was apparently the only that signed up...oh well; I wasn't really feeling like going anyways. I was just going to force myself so everything worked out :-)
I have 3 friends and Mr. Dermatologist coming to see me today. We agreed that I would be spending tomorrow night with Mr. D since his family was traveling out of town...he wanted more but my allowance just isn't enough for that, lol. Oh and he deposited my allowance in my account which was why I agreed to it. I hope he's not too needy in bed. After the show, I met up with my friends and Mr D in the lobby; he brought me roses. My female castmates were dying to see my "sugar daddy", lol...rookies! I didn't really think it was a great idea to introduce him to anybody. He's already met a good friend and I'm drawing the line at that...this is not that kind of relationship. He wanted to hang out at his place (or my place for that matter) after the show but I told him no! He needs to realized that I am a PART-TIME girlfriend, not a full-time one. Anywho, I hung out with my friends after the show and it turns out the cast was hanging out at the same venue we were so I went back and forth between my friends and the cast. It was a nice evening out. :-)

June 19th
2 Shows today! I got through it though. Mr. Dermatologist came to take me to a late lunch after the matinee show and we went shopping for lingerie for later tonight and we got a couple of dresses from bebe (I might as well since my allowance isn't much, lol). I'm starting to notice that as with all my relationships with older men; I'm always the one carrying the conversation...it's annoying so I have to stop this while it's still early. I asked him how long ago it was since he had sex with his wife; he responds "about a year or more". Then I ask him how long ago he had sex with someone other than his wife and he responds "6 months to a year". Fucking liar!!! Men are so stupid!!! Does he think I was born yesterday??? He then asks me how long it had been for me and I respond "same as you". LOL; if he can blatantly lie, then so can I! Anywho, after the last show, I socialize and then say my good byes. I didn't really know how I felt about spending the night at Mr. D's house. I would have sooner just fucked him and left. On my way, he calls making sure that I'm still coming...I can see that he's already trying to test boundaries and see how far he can go with me. I'm just gonna keep an eye on him. I get there and he's asking if I needed anything over and over..it was sweet that he was being a gentleman but annoying because he wouldn't just chill the fuck out! I took a long shower, wore my lingerie, and came out. He decided to jump in the shower; apparently all that time he was home, he forgot!!! This is already getting off to an annoying start but I decide to go through with it because he did put some money in my account with no issues. We start kissing and it is going on FOREVER! It's like he was nervous or didn't know how to begin (I find out later that he was trying to tease me, lol). He goes down on me, we 69 and then time to put on the condom, it gets stuck because his penis is weirdly circumcised. Plus he wasn't that hard...lol he was actually trying to do it him self! Men and their prides, when will they learn??? Anywho, that condom wasn't working so I ask for another; wouldn't you know? Mr. D didn't buy condoms like I asked. He was trying to use condoms he had hidden around the house. This just annoyed me even more. It was like he was trying to find a way to NOT use condoms and started telling me he's clean and has been fixed, like I give a fuck. This is not that type of relationship!!! The asshole even went as far as asking me if I always used a condom with my ex; like our relationship and the one I had with my ex are the same. I told him "YES!"...can't argue with that can he? What a douche!!! I'm starting to see that this one is going to annoy me just like oldie, ugh! I told him we should just go to sleep and try in the morning, after he goes to get more condoms. He proceeds to cuddle and I told him, I don't like cuddling when I'm trying to sleep! Geeze, he's already getting needy and annoying!!! It took me a few minutes to go to sleep but I finally did...I also discover that he snores and talks in his sleep, lol.

June 20th
Today is Father's day, he wakes me up and I lay in bed for a while. He starts trying to kiss me. I asked him if he got more condoms and guess what??? He didn't!!! He brought me 2 condoms that he found around the house. He wasn't even hard which means that I would have to give him a blow job forever! I don't mind giving blow jobs when the other party is responsive...but I'm not gonna suck your dick forever; that turns me off!!! We 69'ed and I get him hard after a while and guess what? The condoms are EXPIRED!!! Are you fucking kidding me??? Then I went off on him (in a much nicer way than I normally would). He starts trying to blame me for not wanting to use condoms and asks us to re-think our relationship. I told him that it was normal to use condoms, just because they didn't back in his day doesn't mean that is the way it is now...times have changed!!! He went from saying how mechanical it was and not spontaneous...I told him that it would not be that spontaneous since he plans his weekend around his wife and kids...I have a schedule too! I can't believe that he even dared to challenge me but I put him in his place! Ugh! I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there. I decide to iron my dress and take a shower and he comes back later saying he found some un-expired condoms...I really wanted to tell him to go fuck himself but I figured I owed him. So we go back to bed; it was the most boring an annoying sex ever; he kept wanting to change positions and was trying to make it longer but I was bored! Finally I guess he couldn't hold it anymore and he asks me "are you going to have an orgasm at all??" Wow! how romantic! lol...I told him "why don't you focus on you?" Within seconds, he came; I got up and dashed off to the bathroom to wash the smell of boring sex off me, lol. We went to breakfast; I couldn't wait to get the hell away from him. I was so happy when I left...he's definitely a bit clingy so I don't think I want to be spending a weekend with him this weekend. I will just make up an excuse for work. I sent him an email thanking him for the shopping and wishing him a happy father's day.
Today was the last show; and as I suspected, people were getting emotional. It was a fabulous experience...a lady come up to tell me how wonderful I was; it was great. We had a cast party afterwards which was fun. We went skinny dipping, ate, drank, and were merry. The producer gave me a lot of compliments...I definitely see her in my future. I went home, watched tv, and went to bed.

June 21st
Got up to do some work emailing...I really need to fly a little bit very soon! Bring home the bacon, lol! I made some phone calls, posted an escort ad in NY. Hopefully I get one or two bites; that's all I really need. Geared up for the networking event tomorrow; went to staples to buy some folders for my resume. I can feel that good things are headed my way! :-) Watched TV, went to bed. I think I will do bikram yoga tomorrow

June 22nd
I guess I pussied out, lol...I didn't really feel like making the drive for yoga today...I wish it was outside my door! Oh well, I'm definitely going to pole class tomorrow to make up for it and then on Thursday I'm finally getting back into soccer! That should help with my cardio. I just need to cut back on carbs (just a little bit). Mr. Dermatologist called to give me the information on the gift certificate he had promised me to use his spa...I guess he's still into me after I got turned off by him, lol. Oh well, I'm still blowing him off this weekend. We are supposed to be meeting for lunch tomorrow and some sex (that I can handle; in and out! lol). After I get my gift certificates, I will break the news to him. I'll just tell him I got booked on a trip.
I went to a networking meeting today and it went very well...I made some good contacts and particularly this guy with a nice SL 500...reminds me of what I drove when I was in college (Richard let me drive it )...he seemed into me as well. I looked him up and he seems to be on the up and up...I will find a way to get in there, lol. As a matter of fact a lot of the men there were staring; it's funny though, they didn't stare too hard because it was a business event, ha! I got an email from one of the staffing companies, I guess I passed their background check...I can't wait to start flying again! I need to get on the move/grind ;-)
Went home finished paper work, then bed. Good day t'was today!